追悼
C. Bourguet |
My deepest condolence |
November 29, 2017 |
My condolences, as feelings of pain and bitterness become unbearable. It is my desire to convey a comforting thought based on the Holy Scriptures
John 5:28 "Do not marvel at this, because the hour is coming in which all those in the memorial tombs will hear his voice and come out."
This passage speaks of the resurrection of our loved ones. It is not God's plan to see us suffer and die, so He extends the following invitation to us: "Come near to God and He will draw near to you" (James 4:8)
Please go to the following link to obtain more information regarding the Hope expressed in this passage and again we are sorry for your loss.
http://www.jw.org
You had a talent for bringing special meaning to life, It was such a pleasure to be your wife. You helped me to grow and to realize the fulliness and the beauty in our lives. Every day I counted my blessings. Then God called, and you went away. Out of this world to be a brighter day. Suddenly my life of gladness turned to utter sadness. My grief wears me down, I shed so many tears, As I recall your love and devotation through the years. For you sake and memory of your name, I pray for strength to do things the same. To reach out, to fill the hours with useful ways, To comfort, to cheer and have no more empty days. I try to console myself -- it was God's greater plan, So I must accept it, If I can. You moved away to his splendid home above, If ther eis life after death, I know you will be waiting there for me, with love. Thougn Heaven and Earth divide us, amd the distance is so great, I count my blessings for the years you were my mate. I will live my life remembering, while you wait, slumbering. My beloved, may you rest in peace.
This song is so beautiful and Carrie Underwood does such an amazing job singing it and it reminds of my precious Junebug Love you.
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Said goodbye, turned around
And you were gone, gone, gone
Faded into the setting sun,
Slipped away
But I won’t cry
Cause I know I’ll never be lonely
For you are the stars to me,
You are the light I follow
I will see you again, whoa
This is not where it ends
I will carry you with me, oh
'Til I see you again
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
I can hear those echoes in the wind at night
Calling me back in time
Back to you
In a place far away
Where the water meets the sky
The thought of it makes me smile
You are my tomorrow
I will see you again, whoa
This is not where it ends
I will carry you with me, oh
'Til I see you again
Sometimes I feel my heart is breaking
But I stay strong and I hold on cause I know
I will see you again, whoa
This is not where it ends
I will carry you with me, yeah, yeah
I will see you again, whoa
This is not where it ends
I will carry you with me, oh
'Til I see you again.
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
'Til I see you again,
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
'Til I see you again, whoa
'Til I see you again,
Said goodbye turned around
And you were gone, gone, gone.
my junebug is watching from above seeing all this nasty stuff that his family is doing to his boys and his wife....I have never seen so much greedy and hateful things in my life so they can have his things no matter how much it hurts his boys. The only things they have left of him is what is left in the house,,and yet they're wanting to take it away from them...I have been called nasty names and many other things just because i'm trying my best to protect my boys from this and to keep my junebug's things for our boys...and yet we get anger and jealousy from all sides...u know what kills me why do ppl wait until to say they have this to prove that this certain item belongs to them like 4-5 yrs later ..why not do this after he passed away...it just proves to show how greedy ppl can be and nasty they can really be when they want something so badly..why in the world would you want guns after what had killed my junebug just makes no sense to me....but I'm keeping my promise to my junebug that no one is taking anything from our boys or let anyone get a hold of his things including his so called family that's suppose to love him so much,,but all they're doing is disrespecting him in so many ways...i just wish they would drop all of this,and let him rest for once..no wonder why this man can't rest cause from all of this hurtful things that are going on.
i'm keeping my promise to you junebug no matter what you things will stay with me and our boys,,knowing you knew what would happened once you was gone,,and ur right as always,,,just keep watching over us as our guardian angel,,love you and miss you a bumch....
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Mara |
My Condolences for the Family |
December 31, 2011 |
WHEN A LOVED ONE DIES
Have you lost a loved one in death? The pain, the grief, and the feelings of helplessness can seem unbearable. At such times, we need to go to God’s Word for comfort. (2 Corinthians 1:3, 4) The Bible helps us to understand how Jehovah and Jesus feel about death. Jesus, who perfectly reflected his Father, knew the pain of losing someone in death. (John 14:9) When he was in Jerusalem, Jesus used to visit Lazarus and his sisters, Mary and Martha, who lived in the nearby town of Bethany. They became close friends. The Bible says: “Jesus loved Martha and her sister and Lazarus.” (John 11:5) Though, Lazarus died. How did Jesus feel about losing his friend? The account tells us that Jesus joined Lazarus’ relatives and friends as they grieved over this loss. Seeing them, Jesus was deeply moved. He “groaned in the spirit and became troubled.” Then, the account says, “Jesus gave way to tears.” (John 11:33, 35) Did Jesus’ grief mean that he had no hope? Not at all. In fact, Jesus knew that something wonderful was about to happen. (John 11:3, 4) Still, he felt the pain and sorrow that death brings. In a way, Jesus’ grief is encouraging to us. It teaches us that Jesus and his Father, Jehovah, hate death. But Jehovah God is able to fight and overcome that enemy! Let us see what God enabled Jesus to do.
For more reference about this wonderful hope you can visit www.watchtower.org
mom 2 Waylon Kitchens |
Happy B day in Heaven |
November 29, 2009 |
Tams(Wife & Junebug's Angel) |
The Crying Anniversary |
August 21, 2008 |
well sunday is me and my precious Junebug's anniversary,and wish to god he was still here with me and our boys. I know he's still aorund me at times cuz I can feel him really strong at times...He said he would never leave my side and I know God made him my guardian angel to watch over me and our boys. I still have my bad days of mising him...and just break down and cry and I know he it drives me nuts to see me like that cause he can't be here to hold me...but I wrote this poem for him because it's how I feel when our anniversary rolls around. Just think if he was here it would have been 18 yrs of us being married....I still cherrish the loving 15 yrs I had with him, and I savor everything I have of his,,and keep his loving memory alive....I'm so blessed to have my boys by my side to see them grow up and take after their daddy..especially nick...lord that boy is so much like him it's hard at times to see Junior im him....but this poem is to you my precious angel,,,and one day I will be there with you holding you in my arms and never ever letting you go or out of my sight....love you and miss you alot...keep watching over us like you have been.....
My crying anniversary is
Every year since you've
Went away that cold
Dark night and it's
There's never a day
That goes by that
My heart doesn't ache
Or cry out for
You and when our
Anniversary comes around I
Get so lonley and
Blue for your sweet
Voice and your soft
Caress and those precious
Blue eyes that use
To look at me but
My crying anniversary will
Always be sad and lonely
Without my one and
Only precious Junebug .
Tammy Renee Adams
Copyright ©2008 Tammy Renee Adams
Tams(Wife & Junebug's Angel) |
Unfinished Sympathy |
June 8, 2007 |
This unfinished sympathy will
Not go away from
My heart from
My heart 'cause this
Pain that I carry
Deep in my heart
From you being ripped
From my life that
One cold dark night
But why was you
taken from me I
Never asked for this
Kind of pain that
Lives deep in my
Heart I hide this
From the world so
No one will have
To feel this unfinished
Sympathy that will always
Live in my heart
And mind to make
My soul restless for eternity.
Tammy Renee Adams Copyright 2007
Gregory Johnson(Passerby) |
I Feel Your Grief |
March 16, 2007 |
Stay strong Tams. You konw he's looking down from heaven and watching out for you
Tams(Junebug's Angel) |
Crashed |
December 22, 2006 |
Oh how my world
Crashed down on me
When you left my
World on that dark
Dreadful night and
How my heart crashed and
Burned when I realized
That I will never
See those baby blue
Eyes ever again except
For when I look
At your pictures that
I have on the wall
And how my world
Crashed when I put
Flowers on your grave
To let you know
That I will never
Ever stop loving you
Or ever forget you in my heart & soul.
Tammy Renee Adams Copyright 2006
Tams(Wife & Junebug's Angel) |
Knowing That You Love Me |
December 3, 2006 |
I came across this song & it was just beautiful, and it reminded me of my precious Junebug thatI miss so much anymore & very loney without him here with me & our precious boys. This song is by Journey, and I love this band and they have such great songs and very beautiful ones at that. Thank you guys ur the best...& I dedicate this song to my loving percious angel Junebug I love you very much & always will be in my heart for eternity no matter what.
I still see the look in your eyes
The night you walked into my life
And how we danced
And the way that we touched
Let me know you'd be mine
And how your love has set me free
An angel watching over me
You lift me up if I should fall
Showing me love
When I was blind to it all
I face the fire and I stand tall
Knowing that you love me
Shared my dreams, gave me wings to soar
My guiding light through the raging storm
I find my strength to carry on
Knowing that you love me
If I could, I'd go back in time
To be there the day you were born
To hold you close
Or to see your smile
And rock you away in my arms
To stand beside you through the tears
Letting go of all the fears
You lift me up if I should fall
Showing me love when I was blind to it all
I face the fire and I stand tall
Knowing that you love me
Ooh, someone to care
And someone to share
The little things that bring joy
To my life ooh, it scares me
We're so close but in my heart
It's got to know
I can't imagine me in a world without you
(You lift me up)
You lift me up if I should fall
Showing me love when I was blind to it all
I face the fire and I stand tall
Knowing that you love me
Shared my dreams, gave me wings to soar
My guiding light
Through the raging storm
Ooh, I find my strength to carry on
Knowing that you love me
That's all I'll ever need
Is knowing that you love me
Ozell Littleton II |
You'll find comfort in God |
November 29, 2006 |
On behalf if the Class of 1987 we give and send you and your family all the prayers and blessings you need. We are all one family trough our Lord and savior Jesus Christ. We are here for you we you need us.
Yours Truly, Ozell Littleton II
Karen Robison (passerby) |
Deepest Condolences |
November 22, 2006 |
I came across your yahoo 360 page and it led me to the myspace and eventually here. You have done a very beautiful job in creating these pages to honor your late husband, they all brought tears to my eyes. Although I do not know the situation or circumstances involved, I do know this...the people that are causing you such grief should try putting themselves in your shoes. People respond differently when tragic events happen and until they have walked in your shoes and dealt with the things you dealt with, they should keep their mouth shut.
I pray this passage helps you through your depression. God bless you and your family, know that I am praying for you!
Psalm 69:1-3, 14-16 "Save me, O God; for the waters are come in unto my soul. I sink in deep mire, where there is no standing: I am come into deep waters, where the floods overflow me. I am weary of my crying: my throat is dried: mine eyes fail while I wait for my God. Deliver me out of the mire, and let me not sink: let me be delivered from them that hate me, and out of the deep waters. Let not the waterflood overflow me, neither let the deep swallow me up, and let not the pit shut her mouth upon me. Hear me, O Lord; for thy loving-kindness is good: turn unto me according to the multitude of thy tender mercies."
http://360.yahoo.com/tinkygurl_1974
http://www.myspace.com/soonergurl74
http://dreamwalkin.myarbonne.com
Tams(Wife & Junebug's Angel) |
Song For Dad |
November 19, 2006 |
Came across this song for my Junebug & it just seems ot fit him so well and it's by Keith Urban he has such beautiful songs...me & my boys dedicate this song to my loving husband of 15 yrs of marriage and for being the greatest father that ever was to our boys love u & miss you my precious loving angel.
Lately I've been noticing
I say the same things he used to say
And I even find myself acting the very same way
I tap my fingers on the table
To the rhythm in my soul
And I jingle the car keys
When I'm ready to go
When I look in the mirror
He's right there in my eyes
Starin' back at me and I realize
The older I get
The more I can see
How much he loved my mother and my brother and me
And he did the best that he could
And I only hope when I have my own family
That everyday I see
A little more of my father in me
There were times I thought he was bein'
Just a little bit hard on me
But now I understand he was makin' me
Become the man he knew that I could be
In everything he ever did
He always did with love
And I'm proud today to say I'm his son
When somebody says I hope I get to meet your dad
I just smile and say you already have
The older I get
The more I can see
How much he loved my mother and my brother and me
And he did the best that he could
And I only hope when I have my own family
That everyday I see
A little more of my father in me
He's in my eyes
My heart, my soul
My hands, my pride
And when I feel alone
And I think I can't go on
I hear him sayin' "Son you'll be alright"
Everything's gonna be alright"
Yes it is
The older I get
The more I can see
That he loved my mother and my brother and me
And he did the best that he could
And I only hope when I have my own family
That everyday I see
Oh I hope I see
I hope everyday I see
A little more of my father in me
A little more of my father in me
I hope everyday I see in me
In me
In me
I hope everyday I see
A little more of my father in me
Tams(Wife & Junebug's Angel) |
When Am I Gonna Quit Hurting |
November 12, 2006 |
HEY JUNEBUG I KNOW U WAS HERE WITH ME TODAY FELT U WHEN I WAS WALKING BACK FROM DROPPING NICK OFF AT SCHOOL. I'M HURTING AGAIN, AND I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE. I WANT TO BE HAPPY, BUT IT JUST FEELS LIKE NOBODY WANTS THAT FOR ME ANYMORE. I TRY SO HARD TO MAKE PPL HAPPY, BUT IT SEEMS LIKE WHEN I DO IT'S JUST NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR THEM ANYMORE.
I JUST LOST IT WHEN I WAS IN THE GARAGE TODAY JUST SAT DOWN ON THE FLOOR AND CRIED MY EYES OUT CUZ OF ME HURTING SO BAD, I JUST WANT TO BE LOVED AND I KNOW IN MY HEART I HAVE THAT, BUT IT JUST FEELS LIKE I DON'T DESERVE IT CUZ CERTAIN PPL THINK I DESERVE TO LIVE IN PAIN, AND SUFFER CUZ UR GONE.
WELL, I THOUGHT TAKING A SHOWER WOULD HELP ME, BUT IT DIDN'T I BROKE DOWN AGAIN AND JUST FELL IN THE BATHTUB AND JUST LOST IT AGAIN. I'M TRYING TO PULL MYSELF OUT O THIS, BUT IT'S SO HARD NOT HAVING NO ONE HERE TO HOLD ME THRU THIS HURTING. I HAD TO MAKE MYSELF GET UP THIS MORNING CUZ I DIDN'T WANT TO GET UP, BUT I DID WITH UR HELP.
AND I KNEW I WAS GONNA LOOSE IT AGAIN I JUST WENT TO UR CLOSET AND OPENED IT UP, AND I COULD FEEL U BEHIND ME, AND UR SMELL WAS STRONG AND I JUST FELL TO THE FLOOR ON MY KNEES AND LOST IT AGAIN, BUT I GRAB UR DALLAS COWBODY SWEAT SHIRT AND HELD IT CLOSE TO ME ON THE BED. IT WAS LIKE HOLDING U ALL OVER AGAIN. AND U KNOW WHY I'M HURTING RIGHT NOW, AND I JUST WISH IT WOULD STOP, AND I KNOW U HATE SEEING ME LIKE THIS.
HOPEFULLY I WILL BE ABLE TO PULL OUT OF THIS DEPRESSION AND GET MYSELF TOGETHER AGAIN, CUZ I ALMOST LOST IT ON HALLOWEEN NIGHT, BUT I DIDN'T CUZ I WAS THINKING OF THE BOYS AND I KNEW U WAS THERE CLOSE TO ME HELPING ME THRU THAT NIGHT. I JUST HATE THE HOLIDAYS ANYMORE CUZ I'M ALONE, AND THE BOYS ARE HERE WITH ME, AND I TRY MY BEST TO PUT ON A HAPPY FACE BUT IT'S SO HARD ANYMORE, AND THIS MONTH IS GONNA BE SO HARD CUZ OF THANKSGIVING COMING UP AND UR BIRTHDAY.....I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT THESE HOLIDAYS, ANYMORE..
I DON'T WANT TO SPEND THEM ALONE ANYMORE, BUT I THINK I WILL CUZ I GUESS I'LL NEVER FIND LOVE AGAIN, AND I KNOW U WANT ME TO BE HAPPY AND TO QUIT HURTING I KNOW THIS, AND I KNOW U LOVE ME MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF AND ME AND THE BOYS ARE UR LIFE, AND ALWAYS WILL BE JUST WISH PPL COULD SEE HOW MUCH I LOVE U ,AND ALWAYS WILL, AND HOW MUCH WE LOVE EACH OTHER BUT THEY CAN'T SEE THRU THEIR HATE TOWARDS ME AND THE BOYS, BUT I KNOW UR PROUD OF US AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE U NO MATTER WHAT....PLEZ STAY WITH ME UNTIL I CAN GET OVER THIS HURT, AND BE HAPPY AGAIN...LOVE U AND MISS U, & GIVE SOX A BIG HUG & KISS FOR ME...LOVE U MY ANGEL AND SEE U ON THE OTHER SIDE & I MISS U AND SOX SO MUCH
Tams(Wife & Junebug's Angel) |
Long, Long Way To Go |
October 13, 2006 |
This song I came across just today and it's a beautful song and reminded of my loving Junebug. Thanks so much To my favorite rock band Def Leppard you guys have such great songs...love you guys you're the best. I dedictae this song to my Loving Junebug.
"Long, Long Way To Go"
You held my hand and then you slipped away
And I may never see your face again
So tell me how do to fill emptiness inside
Without love, What is life?
And anyone who knew us both can see
We always we're are the better part of me
I never wanted to be this free
All this pain, Does it go away?
Then every time I turn around
And you're nowhere to be found
I know I got a long, Long way to go
Before I can say goodbye to you
Oh, I got a long, Long way I know
Before I can say goodbye to all I ever knew
To you, To you
From memory, There is no hiding place
Turn on the TV and I see you there
In every crowd there's always someone with your face
Everywhere, Trying not to care
Then every time I turn around
And you're nowhere to be found
I know I got a long, Long way to go
Before I can say goodbye to you
Oh, I got a long, Long way I know
Before I can say goodbye to all I ever knew
To you, I wish you everythin'
And all the best that life can bring
I only hope you think of me somtimes, Oh
And even though I feel the pain
I know that I will love again
The time will come, And I'll move on
I got a long, Long way to go
Before I can say goodbye to you
Oh, I got a long, Long way to go, Got a long way I know
Before I can say goodbye, Before I say goodbye
To all I ever knew, To all I ever knew
I got a long, I got a long, Long way to go, Long way to go
Before I can say, Before I say, Goodbye to you
Say goodbye, Say goodbye
Oh, I got a long, Long way way I know
Before I can say goodbye to all I ever knew
Girl, I wish you the best I know, Oh and all of the rest, To you
I got a long, Long way to go
Before I can say goodbye to you.
Tams(Wfe & Junebug's Angel) |
To Those I Love |
September 28, 2006 |
When I am gone, Release me, Let me go
I have so many things to see and do
You musn't tie yourself to me with tears
Be happy that we had so many years
I gave you my love, You can only guess
How much you gave to me in happiness
I thank you for the love you each have shown
But now it's time I traveled on alone
So grieve awhile for me if grieve you must
Then let your grief be comfort by trust
It's only for awhile that we must part
So bless the memories within your heart
I won't be far away, For life goes on
So if you need me, Call and I will come
Though you can't see or touch me, I'll be near
And if you listen with your heart, You'll hear
All of my love around you soft and clear
And then, When you ust come this way alone
I'll greet you with a smile, and "Welcome Home."
Tams(Wife & Junebug's Angel) |
I Miss My Friend |
August 30, 2006 |
I dedicated this song to my Junebug and it made me cry when I found it again for him love him so much, and hurt for him everyday, just wish he was back in my life so I can hold him or just to touch his sweet loving face or just to hear his voice once more....love u junebug
I miss the look of surrender in your eyes
The way your soft brown hair would fall
I miss the power of your kiss when we made love
But baby most of all
I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
And let the light back in
I miss my friend
I miss the colors that you brought into my life
Your golden smile, those blue-green eyes
I miss your gentle voice in lonely times like now
Saying it'll be alright
I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
And let the light back in
I miss my friend
I miss those times
I miss those nights
I even miss the silly fights
The making up
The morning talks
And those late afternoon walks
I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
And let the light back in
I miss my friend
Tams(Wife & Junebug's Angel) |
Behind Blue Eyes |
August 21, 2006 |
Behind those blue eyes
Are my precious guardian
Angel that watches over
me with his love
To make sure that
I'm safe from harm
And those blue eyes
You can see the
Love this angel carries
With his heart and
Shares it with the
rest of the world
And behind those blue
Eyes you can see the
Emptiness that he has
Cause he can't be
With his loving soulmate
But behind those blue
Eyes you'll always see
A bright light of love for me.
Tammy Renee Adams Copyright 2006
Brenda Rodgers (PasserBy) |
Feeling your broken heart |
August 9, 2006 |
Tammy,
Just saw your website .. it is really beautiful & I could feel your broken heart. Although I haven\'t lost my husband , I lost my son to a horrific carwreck. We don\'t understand the \'why\' in this life, I don\'t think we were meant to - God has his plan - and what don\'t kill us will only make us stronger. You never get over such a tragedy, you just learn to live with it. When I lost my son, a beautiful friend of ours suggested we read the book of ROMANS in the bible. I was crying hysterically one night missing my son and something told me to get the Bible. I did, and believe me -- my heart was soooo broken but GOD showed me that my Michael was just an angel sent for Earth to be borrowed for awhile. It was Michael\'s time to enjoy Heaven. He\'d done his work here. Now I know I have to live out the rest of my life until it\'s MY time. If it hadn\'d been for the BIBLE , I would\'ve never made it through the last 19 mo. and 13 days. We can all make a difference in this life just like Michael & your JUNEBUG did. Open up your broken heart and let JUNEBUG & GOD lead you to Heaven.
Just remember, the BIBLE is a great source of healing pain.
I am praying for you, your children & your broken hearts.
~~ Brenda Rodgers ~~
Tiffany Cathey(Friend/Family) |
missing u Junior |
August 9, 2006 |
hey junior u just dont know how much we miss you around her. but i do know u are here with me through thick and thin i can feel u are at times. i wish u were here to get of those these boys that broke my heart well at least one anyways. well just show me that u are with me and will be here for me.love ya very much we all do.love Tiff
Tams(Wife & Junebug's Angel) |
Wishing You Was Here |
July 30, 2006 |
Well sitting here thinking about you as usual, and I start to cry like crazy. I know this pain I have of loosing you will never go away. It's just so lonely without you here with me & the boys. I cry myself to sleep every night Cuz that's the most time I hurt for you. I can't let go of the fact that you're really gone from my life.
It just seems like a very bad dream and I'm gonna wake up from it anytime now. But I know it's not a dream, and I won't ever let go of you, Cuz your too much in my heart & my soul. You are a part of my life, and I know ur never gonna be able to rest if you know I'm hurting like I am. I know you worry about me, and I know ur here with me cuz I can feel you around me. I've been trying to keep myself busy cuz I know our anniversary is next month, and it's killing me everytime I think about it. It's gonna be so hard to face that day without you. Just like now I'm sitting here crying. I do this everyday for you. All I have of you are your things & pictures, but I just want you here with me and hear your voice once more, and be able to have our little fights we had. I just miss you so bad it's so unbearable. I just don't know what to do anymore. I figure the pain would ease but I know it won't cuz of me seeing you the way I did when you passed away that night. I just wish i could go back in time and change that awful night. I don't think my heart will ever mend or ever be the same. I know you wouldn't want me doing this, but I just can't help it, It seems like it's getting worse for me instead of better for me with the pain. Nick is getting to look like you everyday, and it's such a blessing to watch our boys grow up, but I want you here with me, but I know you're here but it's not the same anymore for me being alone, and I know we've talked about this so many times, but it's so hard anymore to face this world without you, cuz if something goes wrong with the house or the automobiles I go nuts cuz I try my best to fix them but it's not the same. I know me visiting you 2-3 times a week helps me but I just want to see you, feel you, hear you again. I know you follow me everywehere I go, and that your my Guardian Angel and I love that, but it feels like I'm being punished and that you was taken away from my life way to soon. I just want you back so bad and it's getting harder for me everyday. I know I'm gonna break down really bad before this year is up, cuz I just feel it, and I know I won't have nobody here to hold me thru it like you did. I'm just so lonely anymore without you. Our love has become more stronger than ever before and we're more closer than ever beofre and nobody will ever be able to understand the kind of love we have for each other, and nobody will ever change that or try to break it. Just keep by my side and help me thru this like you have been cuz being strong for everybody is starting to get to me, and I don't know how much longer I can keep myself together for them. I love you very much & like this song says I'll see you on the other side one day, You're my heart & soul and you'll live in my heart for eternity. LOVE YOU MY PRECIOUS JUNEBUG!!!!
Tams(Wife & Junebug's Angel) |
Nothing Without You |
July 27, 2006 |
I'm nothing without you
Because you made my
Life so complete when
You was here sharing
It with me how
Can I go on everyday
Without hurting and crying
For you I'll never
Be nothing without you
Because when you left
My world so suddenly
You took a part
Of my soul and
Life with you and
My heart just cries
Out for your love
To make it complete
Once again but I'm
Nothing without you because
I can't hear your
Precious angel voice.
Tammy Renee Adams Copyright 2006
Tams(Wife & Junebug's Angel) |
Don't Want To Miss A Thing |
July 23, 2006 |
This song was dedicated to my Junebug years ago, and it was our song for a long time, and it's such a beautiful song by AeroSmith, and when I heard it again I just broke down and cried cause of me missing my Junebug so much that I hurt for this man everyday & cry myself to sleep cause of this pain I have in my heart of not having him in my life, and I know it will never go away Cause my life will never be the same ever again without my Junebug, but I know he follows me everywhere I go and he's my Guardian Angel and not leaving my side ever again. Love you & miss you Junebug and that will never change no matter what., and keep doing the things u do to get my attention in the house...love you Junebug
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Where every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure
Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God we're together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever
I don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
I don't want to miss one smile
I don't want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time Yeah yeah yeah
I don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
I Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
the sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
And I don't want to miss a thing
Tams(Wife & Junebug's Angel) |
God Only Cries |
July 20, 2006 |
On an icy road one night
A young man loses his life
They marked the shoulder with a cross
An' his family gathers round
On a piece of Hallowed ground
Their hearts are heavy with their loss
As the tears fall from their eyes
There's one who'll always sympathise.
God only cries for the living
'Cause it's the living that are left to carry on
An' all the angels up in Heaven
They're not grieving because they're gone
There's a smile on their faces
'Cause they're in a better place than, mmm, baby, than, oh
God only cries for the living
'Cause it's the living that are so far from home.
It still makes me sad
When I think of my Grand-dad
I miss him each and every day
But I know the time will come
When my own gradnson
Wonders why I went away
Maybe we're not meant to understand
Till we meet up in the Promised Land.
God only cries for the living
'Cause it's the living that are left to carry on
And all the angels up in Heaven
They're not grieving because they're gone
There's a smile on their faces
'Cause they're in a better place than, oh, baby, than oh
God only cries for the living
'Cause it's the living that are so far from home
Yeah, we're so far from home, Mmmm, Mmmm
Tams(Wife & Junebug's Angel |
One Rainy Day |
July 13, 2006 |
One rainy day I
Was standing there at
Your grave crying and
Wondering why did yo
Leave me so suddenly
With all this pain
That my heart deals
With everyday and one
Rainy day I was
Putting some roses on
Your grave when I
Closed my eyes and
Seen you standing there
Holding your arms out
To hold me tight and
Telling me that you'll
Be by my side always
And that you'll be
My guardian angel and
That you'll love me for eternity.
Tammy Renee Adams Copyright 2006
Tams(Wife & Juenbug's Angel) |
My Precious Junebug |
July 11, 2006 |
Well, Junebug sitting here thinking about you, and started crying again. I just wish this unbearable pain that I have in my heart & soul would ease, but I know it won't ever go away. Cause of the way you left my world that awful night. I wish to God I went in there that night to see what was going on, but I didn't, and I feel so bad about that. Yes I know Junebug it wasn't my fault, but all I have to is close my eyes and relive that awful night. I thought we would go old together, and watch our beautiful boys grow up together and play with our grankids, but that's what hurts the most is not being able to do that with u. I know you'll always be here with me to watch them grow up, but it's just not the same for me anymore. I go out to visit you at least 2-3 times a week, and put flowers out there for you, but I never thought in a million years I would be doing that now. I mean I thought it would be years from now and u passing away in your sleep by natural causes, not the way you left us. I try so hard to keep it together for everybody like you asked me to do at one time when we had our talks about this, but it's so hard at times, and I know I have our friends to lean on, but I don't like being a burden to anyone and you know that. And yes I know you worry about me Cause I can feel you at times around me. Just wish you was here to help me with this car of mine. I know you was messing with my hair the other night to let me know you was right there with me and to let me know that you're not going anywhere and that you will never leave my side again. Yes I know I talk to you at times, and yell at you, but I get so mad at you at times for leaving me the way you did, but I know this is normal and it's gonna happen, but I don't mean nothing by it. It's just me getting my anger out and pain out cause of me missing you so damn much, I just miss your laughter, smile, corny jokes,you calling me from work, singing our songs "picture & In Another Eyes", you pestering me and yes even our fights we had, but I know our love for each other grows stronger each passing day, and it will never go away no matter what. Well, Just keep being my guardian angel, and when I get the money I'm gonna have a tattoo with ur name on me. It's gonna say "Tams" Junebug's Angel with angel wings coming out beside our names, and then our anniversay date. yeah I know I said I would never put your name on me, but I changed my mind and I thought this was the perfect one for us. Keep watching over me and the boys and keep letting me know that you're here with me and holding me like you do at times. I just feel so complete when I feel you around me. It's such a blessing to have you as my loving angel to protect me...love you very Much Junebug!
Tams(Wife & Junebug's Angel) |
Having One Of My Days |
July 7, 2006 |
Well, my day started out good until I went outside in the backyard to clean the battery post of my late husband's car. It tried to start up, but of course nothing goes my way when I want it to. Then to top that off I almost burnt up the battery cable wire put it on the wrong post... but I caught that in time thank god for that. Then I took his cb wires off the cables, and started to put them up, and I just broke down and started crying bad. Why I did that I have no idea, but it felt like I ripped him out of my life. It felt like the night he left my world, but I just stood there and cried like crazy, and I just couldn't let go of the wires for some reason. Then I come back in my house to get my laundry when something caught my eye. Well my female dog had her puppies last week and had 2 girls and 2 boys, well needless to say I was looking at one of the boys and I noticed it was dead. Oh that just crushed me bad, but those puppies was just fine yesterday, and last night before I went to bed. The only thing I can figure out is that the momma must have laid on it by accident and smothered it not meaning to. Oh God I just started crying again, I swear this is just a sucky year for me, and it just keeps getting worser for me. Everytime I turn around someone or something is dying around me. I burried my Junebug in january, then in feb I lost my grandma, and 2 mos later I find out some's daughter killed herself, and then 2 mos after that one of my husband's friend passed away, and then 2 mos after that my mom's friend mom passed away, and then the next month my dad's best friend passed away, and then after that my parents long time friend's husband passed away, and just now one of my dogs puppies died. Like I say it's nothing but a death year for me. I'm about to throw my hands up in the air and just say Forget it! But I'm holding it together cuz I know that's what my Junebug would want me to do, and plus I love my boys more than life itself. So I know I'm gonna be crying off and on all day today....Junebug I just wish u was here to hold me in your arms and tell it's gonna be okay. I know ur here with me all the time cuz I can feel u around me. I know ur not gonna leave my side again, I know you're still worrying about me, but I just hurt so bad of not having you around me I just wish I could have changed that terrible night if I could back in time I would change everything leading up to u leaving us the way u did. I just close my eyes and I can just see you lying there and not moving oh that just hurts me to picture you like that...I just can't get that out of my head for nothing. I can't even go under the kitchen table for nothing. But I know ur here, and I have felt you holding me, and caressing me at times tolet me know ur here and that it's gonna be alright. Well, Junebug keep being here for me Cuz I don't know how much longer I can be strong for everyone and keep it together. Love ya Junebug and miss you so much that my heart cries out for you each pasing minute of the day. You'll never know how much I love you and miss you, and hurt, but I'm sure you know and it just hurts you to see me like this, but I will keep my head up as high as I can for you, and keep it together for now, cuz I know that's what u told me to do at one time if something ever happened to you...love ya Junebug and keep watching over me an dthe boys, and letting me know ur here for me.
Chaz Davis |
Yer wife told me about you |
July 2, 2006 |
I did not know you in life, but Your wife sent me here...Nice to meet ya ,see you on the other side man.
Tams(Wife & Junebug's Angel) |
My Loving Junebug |
June 28, 2006 |
Well, Junebug I know u was here with us last night, cause of Nick telling me that he could see you and feel you last night. Plus he was telling me that you was an angel now, and that was never gonna leave us again. He was telling me what you was wearing, and he also told me that you told him to be nice, and quit being so mean to me...lol.That you love me and Justin and him, and that you love Richard also. Just like now Nick is telling me that your here with us sitting on the couch, and telling him all kinds of things. I cried last night in the bedroom just thinking that your here with us, and I know you're not gonna leave us again, and I felt you behind me and holding me to let me that you was there to comfort me. You're still looking after us, and taking care of us like you always did. You know I really know now that our love is more stronger than ever and it won't ever end no matter what. Thank you for being there with me and Sheila saturday night. You're the best Angel that God has right now. Cause if I know you you're working yourself crazy to make sure we're alright and the ones that you hold close to your heart. Please stay here with us, and you know I've been having some hard times with you being gone from our lives. It's just not the same for me anymore, and I'm trying my best to keep my head up and be strong the way you always told me to do when you're gone, but it's so hard, but I'm doing it for you. Love you & miss you so much that I just hurt everyday for you, but I know you're here with me. love you Junebug for eternity and always will no matter what
Justin(Son & Very Proud Of It) |
love you dad |
June 26, 2006 |
Love you dad, and Me and Nick sure do miss you alot wish u was here to help mom thru this pain she goes thru everyday of not having you around, and with grandma and aunt cissye giving her heartaches about you and everything else. Just wish they would leave her alone, and who ever else makes her hurt and sad. She's being strong like you wanted her to be, and she's doing her best at rasing us. She gives her best and all that she does to keep us on our toes. Love you dad and your memory will stay alive with me and nick cuz there's no other dad like you in the world your the best dad in the world and always will be. Love you and miss you dad.
Tams(Wife & Very Proud Of It) |
Junebug's Angel |
June 22, 2006 |
Oh how this angel
Of Junebug is so
Warming and Loving and
Caring for him that
The love that she
Has for him is
A never undying love
That grows deep in
Her heart each passing
Day that she goes
On hurting and cries
Out for him 'cause
Of the loneilness and
Sadness that she carries
With her thru life
Without him and a
Part of her soul
Died when he left
Her world so suddenly
That she'll never be the same.
CopyRight 2006 Tammy Renee Adams
Tams(Wife & Very Proud Of It) |
Do I Make You Proud |
June 17, 2006 |
I've never been
The one to raise my hand
That was not me
And now that's who I am
Because of you
I am standing tall
My heart is full
Of endless gratitude
You were the one
The one to guide me through
Now I see
And I believe
It's only the beginning
This is what we dream about
But the question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger then I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud
I guess I've learned
To question is to grow
That you still have faith
Is all I need to know
I've learned to love
My selfish part of me
And I've learned to
Walk on the road I believe
This what we dream about
But the question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stroner than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud
Everybody needs to raise
Everybody needs to be loved
To be loved
Everybody need to rise on
Everybody needs to be loved, to be loved
This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud, Do I make you proud
This is what we dream about
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud
Do I make you proud
Do I make you proud
Tams(Wife & Very Proud Of It) |
Bleeding me |
June 10, 2006 |
Oh how my heart
Bleeds from this loneliness
That I carry with
Me everyday and the
Pain that hides deep
Inside my heart makes
It so blue that
It cries out for
Your special love that
You hold in your
Heart and this ache
That I have in
My heart is from
That cold dark night
That you left my
World so suddenly and
My heart will never
Be the same without
Your love and it
Will always bleed because
Of this dark hole it has in it.
CopyRight 2006 Tammy Renee Adams
Eugene |
Jones III |
June 10, 2006 |
I pray that the Lord will continue to bestow HIS blessings on you and your family for each day of your lives, and will continue to keep the memory of your dearly departed loved one forever in your hearts.
Tams(Wife & Very Proud Of It) |
God Gave You To Everyone |
June 6, 2006 |
God gave you to
Everyone because of the
Love that you hold
In your heart for
You to share and
God gave you to
Everyone when you became
His angel in his
Heavenly home and God
Gave you to everyone
On the day that
You came into this world
And this love that
God know that you you
Have to share with
Everyone that you hold
Dear to your heart
And God gave you
To everyone so they
Can keep you close to their hearts.
"Tams"
Junebug's Angel
8/24/90
Tams(Wife & Very Proud Of It) |
I May Never Get Over You |
May 30, 2006 |
I may never get
Over you because of
That dark cold night
That you left my
World so suddenly and
Left me so sad
And lonely my heart
Cries out for you
Everyday and I may
never get over you
If my heart cries
Out for you every
Nite and day that
I see your pictures
On the wall of
Us being so loving
With each other and
I may never get
Over you leaving my
World so empty and cold.
Tams(Wife & Very Proud Of It) |
What A Beautiful Angel |
May 26, 2006 |
This is my award I got for writting this poem for my Junebug, and I don't want to ever hear that I never loved this man because this is my proof that I love this man, and this is such a high honor to get for writting a poem about him. I will always love this man no matter what, and He lives in my heart for eternity, and he will never be replaced in my life or heart, because he has this very special place in my heart that will never go away no matter what. I love this man with all of my heart and soul, and I miss him very much, and the pain will never go away that he was taken from me and my boys so suddenly. I love you Junebug & miss u so much that You will always be a part of my life for eternity.
What a beautiful angel
That I see in
My eyes that's so
Pure of love and
Hope that you can't
Help but fall in
Love with this one
Of a kind angel
Because his presence is
So warm and cozy
That you don't ever
Want him to leave
Your side because your
World would never be
The same and you
Could never find peace at heart.
CopyRight 2006 Tammy Renee Adams
Tams(Wife & Very Proud Of It) |
Carrying Your Love With Me |
May 18, 2006 |
Carrying your love with
Me is so over whelming
That I float off
The ground and hoping
That I will be
Able to see you
In those soft clouds
And smiling down at
Me but carrying your
Love with me is
The most precious thing
That's in my heart
And what I have
Left of you is
Carrying your love with
Me so I know
That when you left
My world that you
Didn't leave empty handed
And that you will always love me.
Tams(Wife & Very Proud Of It) |
Tear Drops Falling |
May 9, 2006 |
These tear drops that's
Falling is from hurting
My eyes are like a
River and it's non
Stop oh how these
Tears are for you
And it's my heart
That cries out for
You and this loneliness
That it carries everyday
And the tear drops
Falling is a never
Ending flow of sadness
And loneliness for you
To come back into
My life and make it complete.
Tams(Wife & Very Proud Of It) |
I Won't Forget You |
May 4, 2006 |
I won't forget you
Because you're deep in
My heart to ever
Let you go from
My life and I
Won't forget you because
My love for you
Grows stronger each passing
Day that you're gone
From my life and I
Won't forget you even Tho' I hurt everyday
From losing you on
That dark cold night
That you left my
World so suddenly and
I won't forget you because
You're my Guardian Angel
Thatw atches over me
Each passing day of my life.
Tams(Wife & Very Proud Of It) |
One Of Those days for me |
April 27, 2006 |
Well Junebug I was on here this morning,and I started crying like crazy, and I had to go outside just to get myself calmed down from hearing your voice. Usually when I come on here it don't bother me, but it did for some reason. That's the first time ever, and just like last night around 2:00 - 2:30 am I sat staright up in bed because it sounded like you was calling my name out, and I got up from the bed and walked in the living room, and looked and also looked in the kitchen also, but then I went back to bed but I kept waking up every 2-3 hours after that. I don't know if your trying to tell me something or trying to get thru to me about something. I hope it's nothing bad, or just maybe you're just worried about me for some reason, and I know you've been here in the house because you keep knocking things off the tv system, and I also feel you like I did today. I know I was out to the cementry saturday checking up on your headstone, but when I got there somebody has been out there visiting you,and of course some pictures was mysteriously was knocked over and the dirt cloggs was removed so they could get blown away, which was the pictures that was messed with was the one of me and you,and you and rich. Now that wasn't right people need to leave things alone on your headstone period. That's there for you and not to being tacky. It's to remember you and pay respect to you, not to mess with your personal things on there. That's okay they keep on and I'll put a stop to it, because I've had enough of that once and for all. It was bad enough to have the site taken away because of childish actions that can't stand the fact that I loved you very mcuh and other people did too besides other rude and tacky people that can't face the facts you did love us also. But that's okay I have a life to live for me and the boys and to remember you the right way and not to disrespect you the way others have done. I love you and miss you very much and I know I did the right thing of shutting certain people out of mine and the boys lives we need to heal the right way not to be hurting anymore. Love ya Junebug and always will no mater what anyone says because we had a love that was unbreakable and it will carry on for eternity..love ya Junebug and I'll see you on the other side when it's my time, and I know you'll be there waiting for me to hold me once more....love you.
Tams(Wife & Very Proud Of It) |
An angels' Unbreakable Spirit |
April 24, 2006 |
This angel that left
Us so suddenly has
An unbreakable spirit because
He had so much
Love to pass around
That you will carry
In our heart for
Eternity and when he
Left this cruel world
He left behind sadness
And loneliness that he
Had touched so many
Lives when he was
Here with the ones
He held close to
His heart and soul
But he will be
Here with us as
Our Guardian Angel to
Make sure we're protected.
Tams(Wife & Very Proud Of It) |
Valley Of Angels |
April 24, 2006 |
I know you're in
The valley of angels
Because you earned your
Wings the day you
Went to heaven when
You left my world
And this valley of
Angels is so peaceful
That you feel so
At peace that you
Don't feel no pain
Anymore and I know
If I look up at
The sky I hope
I will see this
Valley of angels and
See your sweet smiling
Face once more and
I will have that
Memory in my heart for eternity.
Tams(Wife & Very Proud Of It) |
See You On The Other Side |
April 21, 2006 |
Voices, a thousand, thousand voices
Whispering, the time has passed for choices
Golden days are passing over, yeah
I can't seem to see you baby
Although my eyes are open wide
But I know I'll see you once more
When I see you, See you on the other side
Yes, I'll see you, I'll see you on the other side
Leaving, I hate to see you cry
Grieving, I hate to say goodbye
Dust and ash forever, yeah
Though I know we must be parted
As sure as stars are in the sky
I'm gonna see when it comes to glory
And I'll see you, I'll see you on the other side
Yes I'll see you, I'll see you on the other side
Never thought I'd feel like this
Strange to alone, yeah
But we'll be together
Carved in stone, Carved in stone, Carved in stone
Hold me, Hold me tight, I'm falling
Far away, distance voices calling
I'm so cold, I need you darling, yeah
I was down, but now I'm flying
Straight across the great divide
I know you're crying, but I'll stop you crying
When I see you, See you on the other side
Yes, I'll see you, I'll see you on the other side
I'm gonna see you, See you on the other side
God knows I'll see you, See you on the other side,Yeah
I'll see you, See you on the other side
I'm gonna see you, Se you on the other side
God knows I'll see you, See you on the other side, yeah
I wanna see you, yeah,yeah,yeah, see you on the other side
God knows I'll see you, See you on the other side,yeah
I'm gonna see you, See you on the other side.
Tams(Wife & Very Proud Of It) |
Our Junebug |
April 19, 2006 |
Oh how our angel
Passed thru our hands
And was taken away
From us so suddenly
That we didn't have
Enough time to say
Goodbye our angel will
Be missed so much
That he touched so
Many lives that he
Will be in our
Hearts forever and that
Even tho' that our
Best friend is gone
He will be our
Guardian angel and that
He will be by
Our sides to comfort
Us with his passing
And that he will be
Here on earth to
Help us thru our sorrows
And pain and he will
Make us laugh to
Help us remember him
The way he wanted
To be remembered so
Don't ever think that
He's gone because he's
Not he's right beside
Us conforting us and
Watchingh over us as
Our our very own Junebug Angel.
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